Perfectly Damaged by E.L. Montes
Schizoaffective disorder: a mental illness in which a person experiences a combination of mood disorder and schizophrenia symptoms.
I know about this illness — very well — because I suffer from it. It’s been four years since my diagnosis, and ever since, I’ve been living in a dark hole. Voices constantly invading my thoughts. Hallucinations. All of which force me to question if what I’m experiencing is even reality. But here I am, still hanging on, still breathing and living through it.
That is, until he stumbled into my life. Logan Reed. I don’t want any part of him. I’ve pushed him away, but he isn’t easily deterred. I’ve told him I’m different, but he doesn’t care. He’s trying to slowly break me down. I’m trying just as hard not to let him. He doesn’t know how truly damaged I am; what will happen when he does? I know the truth — he’ll never be able to look at me the same way again. Just like everybody else.
This is definitely a strong 4 rating, but not quite a 4.5.
After finishing the book, I’m still not sure why Logan calls Jenna Jersey Girl. They live in Philadelphia, don’t they? Did I miss something?
I wish the story would have gone a bit deeper with her disorder. I feel like she talked and worried a lot about having schizoaffective disorder, but we didn’t actually get to witness or experience much of it. We mostly just got to experience the depression, but even that didn’t make me really feel it with her.
Having said that, it was definitely an emotional ride. It was especially heart-wrenching when she realized exactly what happened to her sister and we lived through it again with her.
The book was well-written and the story was captivating and it was an emotional ride. I would recommend it for anyone who likes romances that go deeper into other issues as well.
Side Note: I actually didn’t even know this book was self-published until putting up this review. I just saw it on Kobo and thought it sounded good. It wasn’t until I looked up the publisher to add above that I realized it was self-published. Well, I am even more impressed with the book now. I’m not going to change the rating, but I will say that this book does not feel self-published whatsoever. There is no indication, judging by the quality, that this book wasn’t published by a big publishing house. It’s that well-done.
Best Aspect: The emotional depth.
Worst Aspect: I just wish we could have seen more of what happens or how Jenna feels or what goes on in her head when she’s having a schizophrenic episode.