On this day last year my husband and I went through something that not many people knew about. We had a miscarriage. We kept our precious #2 a secret from most people. Now, after a year and 12 weeks, I’ve decided I’m done with keeping the secret. That little life doesn’t deserve to just be a hidden secret in only a few people’s memories. #2 deserves to be talked about. Because even though we never got to meet him, my body held him, and we loved him.
I’m posting a similar message on my personal Facebook page and thought I should share it on my blog too because I want to tell anyone who will listen. Today I’m saying a big “screw you” to these damn society standards that we force ourselves and others to follow. Why should it be a secret? Why did we have to suffer alone? We lost a life. We lost our child, our daughter’s brother, and we didn’t even get a day off work. I was miscarrying while I was working, for crying out loud. How awful is that? It was in my work bathroom when I first saw blood and begged that little life to stay.
I’m posting this on my blog to get this message out there. To all of you who think you have to do things a certain way just because society “says” you do, say “screw it” to society and everyone else for that matter. Do what you want to do and what feels right for you. If you want to scream to everyone the day you find out you’re pregnant, then you go for it! There is no logical reason to keep something so exciting a secret. I never got to have that exciting announcement (apart from very close family and a couple very close friends) because the day I was going to do it was the day they couldn’t find a heartbeat. Don’t wait until it’s too late. Scream it from the rooftops!